Ok....I lied. I said I wasn't noticing effects from the drugs...but I spent 5 hours crying yesterday. 5 HOURS!!! IN A ROW! Its insane! I was completely rational in my head...but I could not get the tears to stop! In my own defense, I had received some news that rocked my world and I just couldn't seem to shake it! One of my good friends sent me a text yesterday that said she is having twins. Just like that! No consideration for the infertile girl whose heart she was breaking! I know she wasn't trying to be mean, or to rub my face in it, but for that moment, I was so angry and jealous....and wondering when it was going to be my turn? But, Im learning that God has his own timing for me, and for others. I just need to trust in that! And I do...but some days, its so hard!
Anyhow, enough of the whining! Dustin and I have been talking a lot about adoption. I know that the success rates of IVF are not great....only a 30% chance. We have been discussing what will we do if it does not work for us. We are possibly interested in adopting but it seems like the money aspect to it is just astronomical! It costs more to adopt a child than I even make in one year! But, people seem to adopt kids all the time. Can anyone tell me how they afford it? Any tips?
I go tomorrow for my day 3 lab work and my first of what will be many ultrasounds. FUN! Then I will add the gonadatropins to the list of meds I shoot in my belly nightly. :) This will cause my ovaries to begin making eggs. If you like to feel bloated, this is the drug for you! It makes your ovaries swell to the size of softballs! Oh the things one is willing to do to get what they want, right?!
Ive got choir practice and then Dustin and I help with our youth group at church this evening as well so I better run. I love Thursday nights!!!!