I was at the doctor today, the OB-GYN, for my annual exam. The weather was pretty horrible outside and, while I was there, they came around to all of the patient rooms and made us evacuate the rooms and go down in the basement and stairwells.
So, here I am, the infertile, surrounded by pregnant ladies! All I could think was "Leave it to me to die surrounded by preggos!" One lady next to me had just found out she was pregnant and was looking thru her "Congrats-Your Eggs Aren't Rotten and Your Husbands Soldiers March" packet. She and her husband were so excited and happy to pull each thing out of the bag. "Oh look, Sweetie, a planner for each trimester," "Oh, what is this? Looks like its a container for snacks...must be for when I can't hold anything down!" At this point, I wasn't sure if I could hold anything down! Ha! I have never been so happy for someone and hated them so much at the same time!
I don't know who that woman was but I wish her luck! And now, I think I can say I've lived thru the worst OB appointment of my life! See, there is a silver lining to everything! :)
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Who's kids are these?
Dustin and I are in the process of becoming foster parents in the state of Indiana. We have attended the first required class and are now working on the MOUNTAIN of paperwork that has to be done! I am looking forward to this next step in our lives and am praying that it is a stretching and strengthing experience for us both!
As a couple, we seem to have collected a bunch of extra items in our house. We moved to this small ranch from a HUGE farm house so we have two bedrooms full of extras. One of the biggest challenges to preparing our home for a child (or hopefully two children) is that we now have to figure out where all the extra items are going. We have looked into a storage unit (expensive and items often come our worse for wear) and have asked various family membors to keep some of the items (couch, dinning room chairs, etc.) We will figure it out, Im sure. But for now, it's a challenge weighing on our hearts.
Once we have those two bedrooms empty, we get to turn around and fill them up again. This is the part that makes me ANGRY! I know I shouldn't feel this way, which brings on the guilt, but I really do and Im not going to lie about it. If I had a normal reproductive system, and were pregnant with a child, my friends and family would host a baby shower for the baby. They would provide us with some of the items that are necessary for raising a small child in the home. BUT, because I cannot have children, and instead am opening my home to other children who need help, I will have to go out and purchase these items myself.
This makes me angry/sad because we cannot afford brand new items and so will be begging everyone we know that has children to borrow or sell their items they do not need any longer. It saddens me to think that these kids will not get the nice new items that other children would get. I'm sad that I cannot provide that for them like I could for my own child. However, I know that many used items are still in good condition and we will SINCERELY THANK anyone who has items to spare for us! We have to have our entire home kitted out ready for children before our homestudy. If anyone has items to sell (or lend) or know of someone who does....or even of good garage sales coming up, please let me know! Thank you, thank you, thank you!
I can't end on a low note so I will leave you with this silly picture just to make you smile!
As a couple, we seem to have collected a bunch of extra items in our house. We moved to this small ranch from a HUGE farm house so we have two bedrooms full of extras. One of the biggest challenges to preparing our home for a child (or hopefully two children) is that we now have to figure out where all the extra items are going. We have looked into a storage unit (expensive and items often come our worse for wear) and have asked various family membors to keep some of the items (couch, dinning room chairs, etc.) We will figure it out, Im sure. But for now, it's a challenge weighing on our hearts.
Once we have those two bedrooms empty, we get to turn around and fill them up again. This is the part that makes me ANGRY! I know I shouldn't feel this way, which brings on the guilt, but I really do and Im not going to lie about it. If I had a normal reproductive system, and were pregnant with a child, my friends and family would host a baby shower for the baby. They would provide us with some of the items that are necessary for raising a small child in the home. BUT, because I cannot have children, and instead am opening my home to other children who need help, I will have to go out and purchase these items myself.
This makes me angry/sad because we cannot afford brand new items and so will be begging everyone we know that has children to borrow or sell their items they do not need any longer. It saddens me to think that these kids will not get the nice new items that other children would get. I'm sad that I cannot provide that for them like I could for my own child. However, I know that many used items are still in good condition and we will SINCERELY THANK anyone who has items to spare for us! We have to have our entire home kitted out ready for children before our homestudy. If anyone has items to sell (or lend) or know of someone who does....or even of good garage sales coming up, please let me know! Thank you, thank you, thank you!
I can't end on a low note so I will leave you with this silly picture just to make you smile!
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| THE END! Now, how can you look at those two goofy heineys and now smile!?! |
Birthday camping
Last week I celebrated my 31st birthday. This was a hard time for me...I had always wanted to be done having children by 30 so the fact that I was turning 31 with no kids in site was a bit disheartening. However, my husband knows how much I love the great outdoors so he took me on a camping trip with some of our friends as part of my gift. We had a great (and chilly) time! We enjoy spending time with our friends, and all of their kids too!
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| We camped at Yogi Bears Jellystone Park. Aren't these kids all so darn cute!?! |
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| Dustin and his buddy Caleb |
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| On your mark....get set....GO! |
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| Boo Boo has never seen such babes before! Ha! |
All in all, a HaPpY BiRtHdAy for me! I cant wait for the next camping trip!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Georgia on my mind
I love the mountains! Recently Dustin and I took a trip to the Blue Ridge mountains in Georgia with our friends Dave and Annette. We had a wonderful time in some of the prettiest settings! I loved it! I didn't want to come home! It is my goal to someday live in a place that is beautiful in different ways than Indiana is beautiful. For now, I will settle for pretty pictures and great memories.
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| Our cabin |
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| Our cabin, on the left, was WAY up on top of the mountian. To get there required a death defying drive! |
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| The view from our front porch |
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| Sunset |
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| The mountains at sunrise |
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| sunset |
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| Annette and I hiked almost 3 MOUNTAIN miles to see these two waterfalls |
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| Found this on a hike one day Hope you enjoyed the pics from my vacation as much as I did! Happy Thursday, all! |
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